My Testimony

 My whole life I have been going to church, my mom would make sure I went regularly. We would not go every weekend but we would still attend regularly. I had what I thought was a pretty good childhood, I had a mom, dad, and a house. It wasn't till I was eight and I moved into a new house when my parents got a divorce. The divorce did not bother me much, my dad was always away on business trips so I was never really close to him. The years go on and I go visit my dad who lived in California at the time. Fast forward and I'm now in High School. That's where it started to go down hill. My contact with my dad started to dwindle down and eventually there was no contact at all. I started to become depressed and it reflected in my grades. Also at the time my brother was living with us, and he had a drug problem at the time. My mom did the best she could, but I felt like no one noticed me. At one point I considered taking my life, well a couple of times I considered it. By the grace of God, I did not let the thoughts overcome me. I became very anti-social and never wanted to do anything, I just wanted to stay home and hide from the world. A couple of years go by and I'm now a Junior, my grades are good but my life wasn't. Near the end of Junior year my best friend and I got in a major fight and we eventually stopped being friends. That summer my depression got very bad and I didn't want to live, I knew attempted suicide but I considered it again. Finally, it's my Senior year and my best friend and I made up, but I still had not forgiven her. Then my mom told me about this step study for teens at our church, I was reluctant to go lets just say. I went the first night not knowing what to expect, but I enjoyed it everyone was so friendly and nice, needless to say I kept going. I finally developed a relationship with God. I had never been happier in my life. I made up with my best friend and forgave all that I needed forgiving, I realized I did not need an earthly father to fulfill me, I knew that God was my father and that is enough. I now am becoming a leader for the same step study I was involved in, and have become a mentor. I still struggle with my depression, but I know that I can overcome it with God and my family and friends. 

I know that God loves me and he has done wonders in my life! Everyday is not easy but I look forward to all the good days to come!